(Looks down, shuffles feet, puts hands in pocket, twists mouth to the side).
I’m a little embarrassed about yesterday. You see, when I write posts, believe it or not, my first thought is: strangers. I think of the people I don’t know in real life, and then I write from there. From that place that let’s me be a little more open because hell, what do they care? I tend to forget that my mom, my cousins, my old boss, my best friends all read this blog. So, when I write cryptic posts about our personal life, I imagine that strangers from across the country will all give me a virtual high five and say, “We’ll send you good energy! Good luck!” I don’t immediately imagine, that my mom is going to think James and I have terminal illnesses; or my best friend is going to think James and I are breaking up. Of course, a flood of texts, emails and phone calls proved otherwise and I immediately felt like crawling into a hole and disappearing.
As far as I know, we’re both healthy and well. We’re staying together, and life, as we know it, not without it’s challenges, is seemingly great. So, I apologize. I do. To family and to strangers, for whatever message I may or may not have sent out into the world yesterday. But all is well. I just wanted some virtual high fives. Will work on communication skills.
(Looks up, gives a shy half-smile, cheeks flushed).
In other news, I’m up to my usual flower-arranging, coffee-cup-sorting, pillow-fluffing neurotic ways. Lindsay and Anna sent me valentines and James bought me roses and lillies – the roses died, the lilies live on. I love being loved. I found a green bicycle hook to hang espresso cups on. I was happy about it. I purchased Rose Coconut Oil (it’s organic coconut oil infused with organic roses) for my lips, cheeks and chest (my driest areas). It seems to be improving my skin but I also smell like a garden of femininity (what I imagine the ladies of Downton Abbey smell like) (the upstairs ladies, that is), and that my friends is worth every last penny of the $12 it cost. Also, I made an elephant with coconut milk foam and a spoon. People were pleased.
Out of the Home
I went back to my hometown last weekend to celebrate one of my oldest friend’s 25th birthday. The rest of the photos are scenes from my MOS adventure with the kids. Other than that, I’ve been extremely hermit-like. I work, cook, watch Downton Abbey, go to sleep, repeat. I’m looking forward to spring because I’m traveling a lot and looking to begin a creative group with some friends and volunteering at a library. I’m really craving social interaction, creative inspiration and opportunities to work with new people. Oh and green shoes. I really want green shoes.
What’s up with you?