Words aren’t coming. They’re in there. My mind, that is. But they aren’t sure how to come out. This is not my tragedy. This is not my story to tell. Still, it haunts me. I don’t want to live in fear. No one does. So I’ll continue to make plans and drive on highways and call my mom when ever I arrive safely. I’ll keep taking photos and seeing friends and smiling when the weather is that perfect combination of cloudless sky and crispy air. We all will. But that’s life. It’s that fleeting, remarkable, breathtakingly blue day. It’s that first day of Autumn when you catch yourself happy when others are suffering. It’s that here today, gone tomorrow, where does the time go, how could this happen, I just don’t understand sometimes moment that plants itself in the middle of a beautiful week. When there are no words, when there are no answers, no reasons, no explanations, all we can do is hold onto what we do have, even tighter than we did before.
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Jenna, you could not have written this at a better time for me personally. I know your words come from a place of loss for you and people close to you-they are all in my prayers, truly heartbreaking. You are right, there are no words. Yet you found the right thing to say. My family has experienced more loss than any should and this weekend is the anniversary of a very sudden and tragic loss of my nephew, my brothers only child. Its also his birthday tomorrow. I try to live my life as you wrote, but sometimes my grief pulls me down and I need a reminder, thank you! God bless you Jenna, you have a gift for words and pictures. xo
ugh…feeling so sorry for your loss and the epic loss to the family of that young man. you all are in my prayers!
Jenna,
It is so comforting to know that someone else out there feels the same way I do. The uncertainty, questioning and just feeling helpless is all too much to bare sometimes. This was perfectly written and truely touched my heart. My prayers are with that young mans family and friends. <3
Beautiful post and perfect words.
Unspeakable sorrow against the backdrop of a gorgeous day — so difficult to wrap your mind around this. Remembering another day so long ago when it seemed inconceivable that the sun could be so warm and bright, the fall leaves so vibrant, in the very place where a young life so tragically ended. My dear Jenna, you are wise way beyond your years and you are right, life does go on even when we can’t imagine how. Keep telling your story.
oh how i love these photos!
you captured the time between summer and fall so perfectly!!
xo the egg out west.
What beautiful images! Love how they are just showcases the Fall season.
Beautiful words and many prayers!
xo TJ